Eyes Wide Open

Hi there. It's been a while, huh? Sorry for the months of silence. I've been struggling a lot mentally and spiritually. I felt like I wasn't at a place to write anything to you guys because I was so confused. I felt like I wasn't going to give you my best, so I took a little time off. I can't say that I've fully come back to the place I was when I started this blog again. And I probably won't be there for a while, but I do feel like I am at a place where I can start writing again. So, I wanted to share a little about what I did today. Since I was in middle school, I have struggled with my self image. Like most teen girls, I wanted to be skinny and pretty and cool and popular. And I never felt as such. When I was a preteen I started a bad habit of picking at my skin. Whether it be a pimple, a scratch, a bug bite, etc. I would scratch and itch and pick until it bled. In a way, this was my coping mechanism. It was how I displayed self harm without picking up ...

What's up everyone. I'm sorry it's so late. I just got back from my Bible study group and the entire drive home, my fingers were itching to write. So, here I am eating cold french fries and drinking milk and working on this post. (A fair warning to some, what I want to talk about tonight can be triggering to some people, so read with caution.) This past week has been a little busy with work and what not, but shockingly, I got a three day weekend to relax. Amazing, I know. Today, however, I jumped right back in to work and cooking dinner with my husband and I realized my Bible study group started tonight. I was pumped. Like I've mentioned before, I haven't had a true small group of people I can turn to since high school. I was ready to meet everyone and to dig into the Word. I get there tonight and as everyone is arriving, I am quick to realize that I am one of the youngest women there. I was definitely the only one without any kids of her own. There were wom...