Bisexual, Christian and Still Loved

Click here to see my full coming out video.



I never thought I would be writing this type of blog post and yet, here I am. The video above speaks a lot for itself and I hope you take the time to watch it. (I also said I would be posting this on my birthday next week, but I felt moved to post it earlier.)

I am tired of living behind a fake version of me. The one who is "straight" and is only attracted to men. I've known myself to be bisexual for quite sometime now. But I hid it from everyone and dated men publicly in an attempt to prove to myself that I wasn't different. It was only in the past year that I began to accept myself for who I am.

I came out to my husband at the beginning of the month and have officially come out to y family in the past week.

So, yes. I am bisexual. And I am Christian. And I am loved by a God who created me from His image. I know a lot of people won't see it that way and will argue with me. I'm sure people will be curious as to how I know I am attracted to women seeing as they have only seen me with men. Trust me, I know who I am. And I am not ashamed of it.

I have had my fair share of crushes on girls I've considered friends and even girls I see while out running errands. Yes, I am married to a man and that man is so very accepting and supportive of me. I still love him and I am still in love with him. I want a family with him and that won't change.

I hope the people that know me can be supportive of me being 100% me. I hope and pray that I don't get hate comments or hate posts on my pages. I hope people can understand how good and healthy this is for me to be completely open and honest with who I am. If you have questions, I'd be more than happy to answer them.

One of my favorite articles that talks about being bisexual and being Christian says we have three choices:

1. To stop being bisexual. (Which, to begin with, I don't believe is a choice.)
2. To stop believing in God altogether.
3. To stop believing in a God who would punish and condemn someone who is being exactly who He created.

Since being on any part of the LGBTQ+ spectrum is not a choice and is just who we are, that leaves the last two options. And because I can't just stop believing in a God who has done so much for me and has saved my life multiple times, then there is reasonably only one option.

I don't believe God would condemn someone He created in His image for being themselves. I truly do not believe that. I know God still loves me. I know He will always love me. No matter what. And that is the anchor I hold myself on daily.

So, here I am. Bisexual and so in love with a God who created me and who loves me no matter what.

I also highly recommend listening to Jen Hatmaker's podcast where she talks with her daughter who is gay and Christian and loved. (Listen to it here.) This is what made me open up and come out to people around me.

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